‘Want’ is a bad habit

‘Wanting’ things is at it’s very base an expression of our imagination. We ‘want’ only for things we do not have.

We want for warmth, food, or security only when we feel they are lacking.

We want for affection, belonging, and love when they are absent. For when these things are present they quickly fill our cup.

If we rest in a mindset of ‘wanting’ it can be either empowering or defeating. Empowering if it results in practical action towards goal. Defeating if it results in a measure of life which you believe is unreachable.

‘Want’ can express as a drive or a blockade. Wings or an anchor.

As Screwtape mused about ‘The Enemies’ plans, ‘Planning for tomorrow is a duty of today’. It is often our ‘wants’ which rest in our mind that drive this planning. It is also these ‘wants’ that can create a disappointing measure of life. That blinds us from what is in right in front of us, while we search for what we already know is not there.


The push of eternity

Life is the battle of good vs evil
There is no other thing
Not some far and distant eternal battle cry from angels
Life is and always is the expression of these two worlds
One of light and the other of darkness

Life was before you and is after you
Life is the ceaseless parity
The push of eternity flowing through you
A ‘you’ which comes and goes like a wave on the ocean

No one can count the waves and no one can count the passing of life

All things are carried within the rivers of time

The greatest thing that we can give
Are the things we do not create
And the greatest is Silence, a time of attention so that others may collect their thoughts (being) in order to remain (just be)

We often talk about these things as if they are actions
They are material things of the heart

In all religions and spiritual teachings we are but an Instrument of god
a desire to Open to allow the source of all things great to happen through you
To be a daring witness with humility and an absence of our own thoughts on the expansiveness us the world around us.

From the grain of sand to the moon
Through the unfathomable emptiness of space
An emptiness that exists in its singular ability to be nothing else
This emptiness is God

To arrive at the precipice of creation and gaze to the horizon of forever and shed not a tear
but rather breathe fully from the emptiness

To bring the eternity into your heart
And to fill your cup to the brim without a need to make it an attainment

For when we want of nothing, our chalice is always full
In hunger, you take not of this world

You possess not the food you eat
You simply allow that which is provided to pass through you
So it is with God

Love is not a possession.  And when it becomes so, it is no longer love

A stone belongs not to the river that carries it to the sea
And you belong not to yourself
While the stones rounded edges give it its character
These are but fleeting moments in time.
For since the rock came into being it has been not one,
But instead, it was from one thing cast out to many things throughout time
It was born of sand and sand it shall always be
Though it takes the character of a rock from time to time

The immensity flattens all character
And all things are carried within the rivers of time



Yet Another Thought

A friend recently commented on the fact that I seemed to consider and think about a lot of things that others didn’t…

In reply I offered yet another thought 🙂

Maybe… I think about all this stuff because I just don’t get it !!!   Maybe I am just unwilling to accept the status quo as the way it is…. and I am all the worse for it !!!!

If you look at it,  a lot of our “Science”  is really just a process of dividing otherwise known things into a bunch of pieces and naming them.   Look at a flower… we all know what it is, what it does… It’s a flower right !!   But science divides this flower up into a thousand parts and pieces and names them all….. but it is still just a flower……  Science documents the movements of nutrients through the flower, the use of sunlight for food, the use of color to attract bugs to help it propagate…. but… It is still just a flower…

What Science never tells us about the Flower is “Why?” it is a flower…

So perhaps that’s me….  Just trying to answer an impossible question, by dividing Life into a thousand pieces and naming them !!!! Ha-Ha… Even I see the ridiculous futile nature of that endeavor !!!! …..

But ???   Can I escape it??

Perhaps it is like the missionary that braved the Alaskan Winter to bring the word of Jesus Christ to the Eskimo’s so they could be saved…
–  Eskimo: ‘If I did not know about God and sin, would I go to hell?’
–  Priest: ‘No, not if you did not know.’
–  Eskimo: ‘Then why did you tell me?’


‘Wellness Industry’ or ‘Industry Wellness’?

H.G. Wells wrote this in 1906, in a book titled, ‘In the Days of the Comet’. This passage is about the multitude of billboards seen from a train that interrupts the view of the countryside.   It seems the same is true 111 years later with regard to the topic of our advertising.  We’re advertised to, so we buy unhealthy food and live unhealthy lifestyles and then they advertise drugs to us to treat the damage it all caused.

It’s a pretty good story too though 🙂

How many of our habits of consumption are biological?  How many are or social or learned?  A few years ago I had a bit of a realization.   Most of our ‘issues’ in life are caused the way we ‘Consume’ things. Obesity is an issue of consuming too much, or the wrong kind of, food.  Health issues with the consumption of tobacco and drug addicts consuming drugs as well, but those are the easy examples. Underconsumption is an issue too.   People typically under-consume spiritual ideas and education, and under-consume reality in the form of ‘acceptance of what is’ a rooted position in one’s life.

  • Cheating on a spouse is a consumption of an emotional or sexual goal
  • Overzealousness, be it religious people, a cult, a political identity or even a 50-year old that still dresses like an end of the century metal music headbanger is a overconsumption of Identity ideas
  • Workaholics can be a overconsumption of ideas as well.
  • Overconsumption of recreational pursuits to avoid unpleasant tasks at times
  • Overconsumption of tech at times on purpose to avoid discussions with Heather
  • Under-consumption of  healthy eating and exercise

All of these issues can certainly be expressed in different ways as well,  but viewing them from a perspective of “Consumption” can be eye-opening.   Of course, when it comes to life, the question that we all have in common is  ” How am I consuming my time?”… because in the end, that is how you are spending our lives.


God of Mercy – A Look at our current World Religions

Within pre-Judeo Christian history the Levant and Mesopotamia areas,  the areas now known as Syria and Iraq, were as rife with struggle and conflict as they are in our current times.    This area which is geographically located at the crossroads of the Eastern Hemisphere has long been an area of mixing cultures, values and the resulting conflict of such exchanges.

The most interesting period of history in this area was most likely the Canaanite Civilization that existed from 4000 BC to approx. 2000 BC.   Prior to this period the expansion and contraction of multiple civilizations to include Northern European Iron ages and the Egyptian expansion of power in northern Africa created a push and pull of peoples across this land. In approximately 4000 BC the Levant was occupied by a large group of people sharing a polytheistic religion that was well established as the brokers of hemispherical trade routes.   These routes included westward land routes connecting Europe to Asia, water routes connecting the Mediterranean countries as far as eastern Spain and eastern routes to Persia, the last of the Semite XXX empires, which would later battle Greece in the Greco-Persian Wars (492–449 BC)

The Canaanite civilization was centered on three pillars or tenants which together formed the backbone of their civilization.   They operated economically within a system of commercial capitalism, with goods and raw materials moving from east to west and west to east.  This capitalism was largely built on the need for the raw materials for bronze and iron production from Europe into the Levant and Mesopotamia areas as well as east into Asia.   Spices and goods more easily produced in Mesopotamia’s Fertile Crescent such as Grains and pottery moved westward. They were rigidly tribal and organized on family and bloodlines.   Much of civility is believed to have been based on a need to act honorably within your dealings lest you isolate your business from an entire tribe or bloodline in a feud. The third is a Polytheistic religion which had at its hierarchy the god E1 (eh-won) and a multitude of Gods representing varies ideas and necessities of life.   There were God’s of Love, Agriculture, law Justice, and a lesser God of Mercy named Yahveh.  All of this occurred 1400 years before the rise of the Greco-Roman cultures, which in Western Cultures is about as far back as most average people maintain any understanding of historical context, but all of which was the very foundation for the next 3000-4000 years leading to our current day.


These three tenants would work together over the course of 2000 years to set the stage for the Monotheistic systems which have dominated our current age and is still at the root of much of our current military conflicts around the world.



Commercial Capitalism

The Canaanite civilization was located in present-day Syria and at the height of its expansion covered a sizable area.

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Figure 1 – Map Showing Expanse of Canaanite Society

This geographical placement resulted in the Canaanite civilization played an important role in the trade routes between the eastern and western hemisphere during this period.   Areas rich in agriculture due to the richness of soil from seasonal flooding created an abundance of crop production.  However, these areas lacked plentiful natural resources like wood, or ores for the production of Copper, Bronze or iron goods.  The areas of Western Europe had a surplus of these raw materials but in comparison lacked the agricultural surpluses and instead relied on a nomadic husbandry of livestock for food.  The areas of Eastern Europe, accessible via water routes across the Mediterranean Sea.

Throughout history, it is these very surpluses in production, and lack of other resources or desired goods that lead to economic expansion.   Capitalism at its core is simply the seeking of economic benefit by moving goods, products, and services (labor, AKA slavery), from areas where it is bountiful to areas where it is not.   In order to participate in this exchange, a locale needs its own plentiful resource to contribute and the subsequent product of a capitalistic economy is the creation of new wealth.

A Note on the historical pattern of Capitalism: This wealth is typically distributed based on the merit of individuals to contribute to the creation of wealth. Over the course of time, those that collect additional wealth hold what is known as Capital which is seen as the Means of Production.   This capital is often applied, with risks, to the creation of new wealth.  The additional laborers receive wages or compensation for their work but risk nothing, while the person risking the capital and coordinating the work risks their existing capital.  Such are workers lives spent supporting the means of their life and others may rise and fall in wealth and poverty.  Over time those that are successful and collecting wealth seek to manage the economic environment in which they operate and such is economic capitalism always linked with political interest.  The level of control any single entity, or group of capitalist, can capture control of the political system depends on the existing government system. In later ages, the Communist economic systems of Russia and China would be tightly controlled by a small group of oligarchs. In early Western history, the Capitalistic system was usurped for a while within the British Empire into Mercantilism, and in the modern-day United States the Corporations own the means of production and are continuously (and often successfully) able to direct some functions of government using electoral contributions, political support, and regulatory capture… But enough about that…

In the Canaanite system, the Commercial Capitalism was limited to regional areas as Tribal and family divisions resulted in the clear delineation of areas in which each competitor operated.   In many areas of the trade routes, goods could be bought and sold, or “Tributes’ paid to ensure passage or favorable dealings.


Tribalism in Canaanite Society

Throughout human history, there is only one social and political entity that comes naturally into existence and all systems of government spring forth from this natural social order.  That system is, The Family.   Whether you are born in 4000 BC or in the modern age your first interaction with a system of authority is the family structure.  In this structure, there is a natural deference to elders with more experience that exercise authority to direct the actions of others for the benefit of the entire organization.   In addition individual’s role and responsibilities within the family organization change over time as they age.   In early human civilizations, these bloodlines would extend to include cousins and 2nd cousins.  They would then extend three and four generations of diversions back in time, and these family groups would often remain in very close regional proximity and Tribal relations were the extension of Familial relations.

A Note about Tribal organization. This pattern of tribalism can be witnessed around the world and throughout history.  In Korea, the Tribal relations resulted in the Kim tribe becoming one of the largest in Korea.  When these tribal organizations entered the modern world they would take the name of their Tribe as their Last name (Surname).  This is why there is such large population of South Koreans with the last name Kim.   In China, the most common surname is “Wang” with nearly 10% of the population sharing this surname which corresponds to the ethnic group (tribe) of Wang or Yang.

An example of the fierceness of these Tribal or Clan relationships can be seen in the Hatfield and McCoy conflict in 1863 to 1891.   This family blood feud almost resulted in the states of West Virginia and Kentucky declaring war on each other.

It is the conflict between a capitalistic motive and these tribal connections which eventually led to the end of the Polytheistic Canaanite civilization and the creation of the current monotheistic religion systems we have today as we will shortly see.


The rise of Yahveh, the God of Mercy

Over the course of time, the devotion to tribal organizations and the cultural value of wealth creation through capitalism resulted in a Cultural Conflict.   In pursuit of opportunities or additional profits, successive generations of Canaanites began to break their family and tribal connections.   This was affected by means of entering into employment or bond to a new Authority figure outside of your Tribe.   The connections were made for those that were hired as soldiers, merchants, managers or any number of services.   Once a Canaanite entered into a contract or bond with someone outside of their tribe they could no longer hold the trust of their family lines.

This shift from the importance of tribal lineage to capitalistic engagement was a profound shift that occurred over the course of hundreds of years.   The name given to people that made this sift was Hibiru, a word which meant ‘Not connected to Family’, ‘without kin’, or kin-less’.   These people attached themselves to the God of Mercy as protection, as their family protection was removed.   The God of Mercy was named Yahveh.


A Note on Yahveh.  Let’s work backward for a moment.   Above the door of many Catholic churches today you will see the following Hebrew letters.

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Figure 2 – The Yahveh symbols on Catholic churches

These letters each have phonetic sounds associated with them.  Phonetically these symbols are expressed as ‘Ya Way’ or ‘Ya Veh’. The actual historical pronunciation of these letters lacks the hard consonant sounds added to many anglicized words and would actually sound like a heavy breath being released. This word was known to later Canaanite Hibiru’s as “The Breath of God”.

‘The Breath of God is Mercy’

This carried forth into Judeo Christian Dogma as the Hibiru became the Hebrew nation, and subsequent division of Christianity and Modern day Islam.

Over the course of 1000 years, the population of Canaanite civilization continued to transition away from strong familial and tribal connections and more and more of the population was Hibiru (Without Kin). Eventually, this shift in loyalty, and the growing alliance to Yahveh, the God of Mercy, transformed into a New Hebrew culture with a single God, Yahveh, and a monotheistic religion was formed, Judaism. The Torah and Old Testament of the Bible were written at this time.  Coincidence?   No, it is history.